peace.

this time around...
i'm not so stressed.
i'm not analyzing everything.
i'm not trying to control.
i'm not worried about how every little thing will make or break this.
i'm not trying to impress.
i'm not being really careful.
i'm being me.
and i'm giving this to God.
this time around feels...
different.
good.
better.
right.
because i don't need this.
this doesn't define me.
even if it happens...
it won't be mine.
because it is already God's.
always will be.
and isn't that better?
isn't that how it should be?
wow...i don't have anything to do with this really.
my job is still to love the Lord with all my heart.
mind.
soul.
strength.
can i do that with this? absolutely.
a given.
no questions.
wow.
i don't need this.
but i want this.
because if it happens, it will be this amazing gift from God.
this beautiful thing i will be entrusted with to bring more glory to him.
wow...that's an awesome thing.
hmmm....
amazing peace about this.
amazing.
that's awesome.